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It's 4:30 a.m. I can't sleep. What is wrong? I usually sleep a deep sleep every night. Guess the Lord wants me awake for some reason. I was lying in bed praying. But then got up ...to see if there is something God wants me to know. So, I remembered that Pastor Bennie wanted us to read the BOOK of James. I read Chapter 1. Then I studied it and read the Wycliffe Bible Commentary on it. James said we must not be double-minded, like someone who is tossed on the waves of the ocean, up and down, believing one minute, not believing another minute. That means I must be consistent, praying, believing that God will answer me, and believing God is who He says He is. He is the Father of Lights, coming down from above. And one thing I know, I do not want to be known as "religious", the kind of person who just hears the Word of God, and it goes in one ear and out the other, and not be a "doer" of the Word. Acting on what the bible says. We go to church every Sunday, shake the preacher's hand, and say, "Good sermon pastor" but then during the week we don't act like a Christian...we talk the talk, but "don't walk the walk". That is what James is saying in that chapter...one of the things..
Well, it's now 6:30AM. Going back to bed. Maybe I can sleep now. I am praying for rain. It is so windy and hot here in S. Texas. Wish it would rain for a week!
Yes! I am soooo sleepy.

Looking back

This morning I was reading some of my old prayer journals. I like to do that periodically because when I read them, I always see how God has answered my prayers. Or how God will tell me something in a dream, and it has come to pass. In 2004 through 2006 there are many journals, I kept, telling dreams, which I interpreted then, and Lo and behold it happened just as I interpreted then!

In 2004 I was very depressed and the Lord told me to write down things that I was thankful for. So I began a list, and through the next days and weeks, I added to the list every day, things I was grateful for. The list grew and grew when finally I had over 150 things for which I was thankful. It helped lift the depression.

On April 12, 2006, I wrote down a conversation Eddie and I had. Just now reading, it brought a smile to my face!

Eddie, coming into my office: “There you are! What are you doing?”

“Talking to the Lord” (I was writing my prayer in the journal)

“I knew that! I could hear and I knew that was Him talking!”

“Really?”

“He was looking for me, and He found me, and He found you too!”

God talked to me through Eddie many times!

June 9, 2006 – I wrote a poem that day

How Can It Be?

I really am happy

How can it be?

A husband with Alzheimer’s

Yet I am content

How can it be?

Because of God!

He turns things

Into good

Only believe!

Only trust!

How can it be?

That I should see

The good things

That looks so bad?

Because God’s light

Shines in darkness

And makes all

Things bright

When I should be

So sad

Thank you Lord

For showing me

The light

This day is a good day because He said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.”

It helps to stay on the sunny side of life. And hang around people who are optimistic and happy because there are people that depress you just by hanging out with them. That is, if you can help it, sometimes there are negative people that you have to work with, or in your family, and you can’t avoid them, but find time to draw away and let the negative vibes slide off of you! I pray for the armor of God to cover me daily. Like a shield!

June 24, 2006

A page in my prayer journal

I am sitting her listening to a CD and a song called “Glory Gold”. I feel God’s glory in this room.

Eddie just walked in, and said ‘I feel like I am on fire! God is coming! He’s going to help us. You know why? Cause we are under His hand!”

Then we both sat there with our hands raised up and Eddie said,

“The people are going home. We’re on our way home!”

Oh Lord!

Then I wrote “What I feel is …the world…it’s good!”

Good times.

I will rejoice today!

The News today is that Osama bin Laden is dead. After 10 years of chasing him, after he was the mastermind of the tragic Sept. 11, 2001 episode in America, they finally found him in Pakistan, and Special Forces killed him. That is the good news. Thank God फॉर ठाट.

This morning when I was praying, to thank God this terrorist was no more, and I was praying for protection to America, from other terrorists, suddenly, I had a vision: I saw a fly on a wall, and an arm came out with fly swatter to kill it, which it did, it fell to the floor dead, But then I saw another one in it’s place, and the arm with the fly swatter killed that one, and that kept on, with more flies being swatted and killed.

I kept quiet then asked God what that vision meant. He said “Even though the enemy is dead, you must keep watch, and be wary, and keep alert, for they will keep finding a way to come in your house. You keep saying you don’t know how they get in, but when the door is open, there will always be a few flies (terrorists) getting in. But don’t worry I will take care of you. There will always be flies, or wars and rumors of wars. But the end is not yet near.

I knew that last was from somewhere in the New Testament and I looked it up. I found it!

Matt. 23: 4-6 - Jesus told them, Don’t let anyone mislead you, for many will come in my name, claiming, ‘I am the Messiah.’ They will deceive many. And you will hear of wars and threats of wars, but don’t panic. Yes, these things must take place, but the end won’t follow immediately. Nation will go to war against nation, and kingdom against kingdom. There will be famines and earthquakes in many parts of the world. But all this is only the first of the birth pains, with more to come.

But for now I can rest assured that Osama bin Laden, an evil man, is no more. And all those brave men and women, who have fought in a war in the Mideast and even gave their lives in it, have not done so in vain. And I thank my Lord that I can wake up this day, to a peaceful house and a peaceful town, and a peaceful America. But I will keep praying for America, and I hope we can keep it free. I will enjoy today, knowing another terrorist and enemy of America is no more.

Today I will rejoice in the Lord, always! And again, I say rejoice!